Happy Thursday!

I try to be serious in this blog, but this is going to be random and today is the thursday of all thursdays... tomorrow is payday AND friday AND the friday before a LONG WEEKEND! it could not get better than this given my current circumstances (i mean, i could be warm in bed with a hot young man but that is outside the limits of this equation that is my life).

i have perhaps found the reason for my interesting dreams: i am constantly bombarded with images of hot men. for example, ER. I love ER. there are two actors about which i always say, OH HE'S SO HOT! this does not help. and next week or the next will be my "open window" week, meaning that phereomones will be crazy and i will be biologically driven to wear less clothing and more makeup. this will not help. i have so much respect for those people who already know who they want, even if their circumstances won't allow it till later. at least they know.

there is a person that i am thinking about a lot. i am wondering if my intuition is telling me something or if it is just because i am frustrated about starting something and then abrubtly ending it for a dumbass reason for which i didn't even ask an explanation.

and another random person i thought about, matt w. i haven't seen him since probably my third year in college. i dreamed that he was married and i have no idea why i ran into him but i did. no idea even why i dreamed about him - maybe because his first CD is in my car and i thought about listening to him earlier this week.

and i am so pissed off about MP. Three emails since march and no response. this isn't like my geologist friend; i hope nothing bad happened to him. wouldn't i have found out by now? it's funny - from the outside i can see how wrong i was about him. three years ago i would have changed my life completely for him, had he only asked. fortunately he never did and I am here today realizing how little i did know him. i guess i was obfuscated (sp?) by his hotness and my first run-in with hollywood-style romance. but now i can see beyond all that, and i really didn't know him at all.

i must add, it is so nice to discuss literature with someone. i think my ex, though he is doing his PhD in physics, was illiterate. Never wanted to discuss literature. i don't think he read much. add this to the list of necessary characteristics: must be LITERATE.


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