acceptance

for the past few weeks i've known. it all has started to come into focus and make sense. to think that i could be with someone still working on his undergraduate degree? i'm not that much older but enough older to be in a different stage in life. this is a freeing kind of acceptance - i'm not upset about it, i'm not tearing my hair out thinking he is perfect for me. i don't hate him. i just now accept that we're not going to be together and am understanding better why not. why am i so calm about this? perhaps because what happened with us gave me hope, reminded me that i really am not made of cold stone but am in fact capable of feeling something for someone. i no longer feel "not good enough" for him, and i see that there are legit reasons "we" could never be. of course i don't feel like trying to list them because i'm not sure i can articulate them - but they do exist. i just don't feel the same about him as i used to - not that anything has changed or happened between us; the interest has just gone in light of these reasons. if ever i doubted there were worthy guys out there, he has helped me restore my faith in that.