don't turn (on) the LIIIIIIIIIIGHTS!

so yesterday i wanted to enjoy the steam room as i usually do - sitting on the top ledge furthest from the door with the LIGHTS OFF.

but as i approached the door, the LIGHT WAS ON!

now, i'm comfortable with my own body on display for others to critique, but i'm afraid of people thinking i am checking them out, so i usually sit with my towel open and my eyes closed. but it's so hard to keep my eyes closed with the lights on.

and the woman who was already inside had her towel wrapped around her.

so as not to disturb the "dress code" established by the first person in there, i felt obligated to leave my towel wrapped around me too.

hm. i stayed wrapped up so as to not make the first lady uncomfortable. but if i'm in there and someone else disrobes, i feel more comfortable doing so provided the lights are out.

with the lights on i just feel too visible and have a hard time getting into my little steamy bubble of personal mental space.

speaking of mental space. i'm going to go fill some with the words of Mr. Diamond before my show comes on.