it's wednesday.
still i have no desk
and my little monster has returned
on schedule
waking me up early
and dragging me to the toilet
to spend the next hour
on the bathroom floor

it's 20:06 and though the monster has stopped kicking me,
its claws remain dug into the inner lining of its home
(which is part of me)
in which he lies dormant for twenty-five-odd days
and awakens to torment me
on days like this.

but good news: i'm drug-free!
i toughed it out and refrained from taking
any analgesic - my liver already has enough work to do
with the psychotropic drugs and all.
i did try icy hot, which smells good and worked the first time,
but i couldn't get myself to relax

and more good news: i have another interview tomorrow.
it's for a hs teaching job -SPANISH- at a hs about 40 minutes away.
i've said to myself that i'm still too young to teach high schoolers
(without causing a commotion - says the vain side of me)
that i'm still not over my own high school experience
(the ugly, ill-fitting clothes; my refusal to wear makeup; getting all depressed over fake people from the cult!)
but i realize how retarded WE ALL WERE
having listened to high schoolers' boring, boring talk
about celebrities and other things that leave one's
higher-order thinking skills asleep...

but anyway an interview is an interview
and project runway is on tonight!
i hope i find a desk in the next few days.