campaign

the good thing about having physiological balance of neurotransmitters in my brain is that when something shitty happens, i can be upset about it for x amount of time, and then get over it. pre-meds i would have obsessed over it, and i wouldn't have been able to undertake the campaign that i began on friday. i noticed a number of steps that i had taken without thinking about them, and then i was able to consciously come up with a number of steps to be taken in the near future:

1.) appeal to anyone who is familiar with my work - i have a lot more people willing to stand up for me than the one who has a vendetta for me (remember my "why don't we have programs that will broaden the children's perspective rather than narrow it" in response to the religious group that was meeting after school) (oh, and if gossip flows within the education community like molten silver solder, she might have heard what i really think of her - my old boss who is a principal this year asked me what i thought about my then boss; i said she was very inexperienced at being in charge; i don't think my old boss would have let her know i mean, who am i? i'm just a one-year teacher)

a.) miss L, for whom i supervised her fourth grade class during their literacy block;
b.) my bosses at the hospital (june 2005 i worked for them and did a great job)
c.) miss D, who was shocked when she found out my contract had not been renewed

2.) withdraw my application for instructional positions from the behemouth school system, thus leaving only my non-instructional application (the one that i hope isn't marred by the old principal's dirty fingerprints)

3.) send off the references to my chosen people, complete with SASEs, ASAP

4.) forget about the job i had and then didn't have. it's no longer in my hands; and i don't want to work for someone who would doubt what they saw in me at the first interview because of a bad reference (which shouldn't be applicable anyway because the job for which i had interviewed was NON-INSTRUCTIONAL)

5.) apply to work in other school districts.

6.) work on the application for the international school nearby - they have not seen, nor will they see, aforementioned dirty reference; the application is serious stuff and fortunately i am a decent writer.

7.) deactivate instructional application from the state education employment site;

8.) delete Dirty Reference (as she shall henceforth be known) from non-instructional application;

9.) move on.

10.) purge myself of toxic thoughts (ie, hate, anger, rage towards dirty reference and wishing BAD THINGS upon her, etc.)

i will admit though, my mom called on friday and i sort of lied about what was going on - i didn't want to go into detail; she asked me why i hadn't yet started, i told her that HR was really backed up and blah blah blah. plus i would be tempted to ask my mom to march over to the old school and throw eggs at Dirty Reference's car, or at least to yell at them. she wouldn't, but i would still ask her. but that would have been counter-productive to #10.