is my soul lost?

because maybe that is the seat of my crisis. i'm not me anymore. and i don't know what to do to get back. i feel useless, like a parasite, like i am just taking up space. at work i feel useless because there is nothing for me to do. i feel useless in my one class because i have nothing to contribute. there is nothing coming from me. i would be a failure as a ghost because nobody would register my presence. i possess no energy, no light. so i might as well stay living because as a ghost i wouldn't be able to haunt anybody. i feel like i can't function. the only thing in which i take pleasure is reading. which i am going to go do now.