thought exercise

what follows is my post from yesterday - i didn't get a chance to finish it. i had so many other ideas for today's post (the last pres. debate was last night - many comments i'd like to make) but i am feeling like miercoles so i am going home, having tea, putting on my pijamas and getting in bed. saludos para todos...


i am sitting here waiting for a supposedly "cold-preventing" fizzy tablet to dissolve, package of which i picked up on monday at the M. Pharmacy. (that was my mission, to find this particular place). i can't share any details about the nature of the mission or anything about this particular pharmacy, because it would be like taking my clothes off for someone without him asking. i can't help but find a similie in this to the preambles of sex. the male goes round and round begging the female for what he wants (in first subtle, then increasingly more obvious ways). and obviously, once the female decides to give it to him she doesn't give it to him right away, that would be considered slut-like, indecent, ordinaria. so she is free to tease him and hang it over his head, but he has to be playing along. she can't give it to him without his asking; again, slut-like. (i'm not defining slut here, just what i have seen as the general assumptions about sluts and their behavior). obviously i'm not going to tease with the results of my mission, but i am waiting for further communication from the proponent of it. there are interesting details that must be shared in real-time and can't be risked through email. plus, if all i am worth is the results of my mission, once i give them up i'm done. this is what it is like for a girl to face that question of do-i-give-in-to-his-advances-or-wait-longer. we wonder, if all he is after is sex, once i give in he won't be interested in me, will he? i think maybe here my similie/metaphor/whatever you want to call it makes the most sense.

not that it's that serious anyway; i am always thinking of symbols and metaphors in my daily life because it's a good excercise in thinking and writing, and also kind of interesting to explore.