liquid lunch!

instead of taking a bubble bath tonight, this is what i did. it is what i usually do when i am bored so that i can compile a catalogue of my body parts and use their images for some kind of project. well, not really. i'm just vain and it must be shrared with ... someone... note the messy messy floor in the background and my orange shoes. i think this was last sunday after two people had cancelled on me for a movie. i think i mentioned this, i got upset and sat in front of the TV and ate dark chocolate with almonds all night. anyway if you have ever considered doing pilates, do it. i considered hunching my back and contorting my body to make rolls appear and taking a picture; i'd have that picture right next to this one with the captions: this is your stomach. and then the after picture: this is your stomach on pilates. a little cliched i know but i've just been reading about how that public service announcement campiagn (you know the one all you 80s and 90s children, with the frying egg... this is your brain; this is your brain on drugs) was a complete failure. would my campaign be a complete failure? would there be less fat people, or at least fewer stomach rolls? eh there'd probably be an outcry like WE DON'T WANT TO STARVE OURSELVES! speaking of that i've been exhibiting some very bad behavior lately. friday i didn't eat lunch. i was too pissed off and stressed out. so i was like FINE I'M NOT EATING! i'm not sure if this could be an actual disease with an actual name? like "laziness?" could it be my own form of "cutting?" don't think so - emotionally i'm feeling quite stable. today i bought soy protein powder. it says "meal replacement" on the label. will get some organic milk to keep in the fridge at school and just have liquid lunch! it'll leave me much more time for copying and organizing the tons of paper that seem to congregate on my desk every time i turn my back.