i think i'm suffering from "homestretch in your last race ever" depression. not that it's a technical term but still. i am losing momentum fast at my job. i enjoy teaching but i am having so much trouble getting over the fact that anything i do at my school now is, i don't know, not done for nothing because i hope the kids remember, but useless for me in the long run? i don't know. it's just i feel like i got NO WORK done this weekend and even though i did very little i still feel SO TIRED. i need to shut off my computer, that's what i need to do. i sit here staring blankly at the screen for so many minutes. my posture is so bad that i'll be an inch shorter by this time next year if this continues.

but maybe this not-returning-to-my-job-next-year is a good thing. it allows for some mobility; i'm not tied down here anymore.