ansias

knowing that i could get it whenever i want it is not going to keep me warm at night. i've never gone and tried, but maybe i just need a bi-weekly fuck to keep me in a good mood... i'm just thinking that when i was with my ex, even though i didn't feel much for him, i was still generally in a better mood than i am now, and maybe it was because of the regular action. and adding onto these ansias, DCB1 has just called my brother. he might come over. for those of you who don't know, DCB1 is Dual Citizen Beau number 1. my first post-boyfriend fling. i'm afraid of him coming over and completely ignoring me. but in all honesty it doesn't matter. i just wish i had a realistic crush so that i wouldn't even have these ansias.