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it's funny how a certain chance combination of clicks and arm movements can lead you to inadvertently see an outside perspective of yourself.

and i was pleased with the outside impression of myself... further proof that people believe you when you tell/show them what or who you are, or think you are (for example, if i believe that i am the cutest girl in the room, and act accordingly, who is going to tell me otherwise? and if they do, am i even going to listen to them? not that i actually think i am the cutest girl in the room all the time, this is just an example that is much easier to explain than the subtle politics of salsa dancing). is it any wonder that my last name means "vain" in german?

and one last thing for wednesday:
for the record, i went to the doctor today and weighed in at 106 lbs (not 115, as popular belief currently holds. i must add i am also 5'4"). and, i asked the nurse if she could look at my chart from 97... back then i was 102. and all this time i thought i had lost like 20 lbs or so after high school! all goes to show that i am not this skinny on purpose, it's just how i am naturally.