the days can only get longer

since i have recently found myself with an incredible amount of free time, i thought i would write a christmas list, should any of you be so inclined as to buy me a gift...

- last year i got a platinum ring. it has gotten quite lonely on my right hand, so it would like another to keep it warm and from falling off my finger (note: i was given this ring by my mom last year; one really does look lonely so i need another. i'm also hoping to start a collection of these tiny platinum rings).

- a gym membership. if i weren't such a snob i would look around for a cheaper gym, or maybe even go to the YMCA. but my dad's gym in b-town is SO NICE that i MUST go there. i know, these are all excuses. it's probably safer for me to go to a gym where there is LESS of a probability of running into high school crushes though. but this one has a HUGE hot tub!

- a clue.

- a crush.

- a good attitude.

- new running shoes. it has been five years since i last bought a new pair. well, a gift cert is probably better seeing as i'll have to go to some specialty running store because my feet are like arms (that means that they are size eight but very thin - i've heard them described as dancer's feet).

- sheets. since my house is kind of TPT-ish, there are two queen size beds and three fulls, and only like one pair of sheets for each. i need more! (note: TPT = Trailer Park Trash). god that sounds so snobby and ironic but we have all these twin-size sheets that are still in the sheet-closet (not linen, we don't have anything made of linen).

- loyalty. see how disloyal i am to my own family? but seriously. sometimes people wonder how i could have come from such a chaotic mix.

- fuck-me boots. i think that is the technical name for them; if you're not familiar with this term, they are knee-high-ish boots. the FMBs are trashy looking though and have chunky, unfeminine soles. i and my dancer's feet prefer more slender, refined soles. the technical name for these would be: take-me-to-paris-on-vacation-and-spend-lots-of-money-on-me-and-then-you-can-fuck-me-boots. hahahaha. i'm really not so pretentious, i just thought that was funny.

- to be me again. HA. but seriously, a few months ago i had a totally different attitude. but now since it is so freakin cold and since surviving the downfall (and slow turnaround.. but it is much much much better) of my face, my self-esteem is somewhat altered. plus it has been a while since anyone se ha fijado en mi. ok that sounds sappy and it is kind of a lie since M has been after me (but when has he not?) so he doesn't really count.

- yes, to rebuild my self-esteem. sorry though, none of you can buy me this. i hate to be impossible ;-)

- nothing. just good times with my family, and with friends, and a good enough attitude so that i can actually enjoy the holidays and not be so stressed over stupid little things.

so tomorrow is the first day of winter and also the shortest day of the year. if i can get through tomorrow, the days will start to get longer (meaning: more sunlight) and things will be looking up from there.