class please be quiet; miss e has a headache

why oh WHY DID I DRINK SO MUCH LAST NIGHT??? i hope you enjoy my drunk post, typed out in the freezing cold at two-thirty this morning.

now i am at school thinking this friend, whom i saw on tuesday as well, is beginning to be a BAD INFLUENCE on me - look at me, i'm drinking, smoking (well not really, taking an occasional drag), staying out late on a WORK NIGHT!

oh, i do apologize for the bad language. my sister really pissed me off. see when i drink it's like i am emotionally on the edge of everything - knock me the right way and i could cry, say something else and i'll be giggling like a fourth-grader on valentine's day, or say just the wrong thing to me and i could get really pissed. what had happened is my mom HAD left a note on the front door for it not to get locked until we were both home. my sister ignored that note and locked it. then i came home at two, found the door locked, and consequently started banging on the door. then she came down and opened it, and i called her an idiot for locking it. that was mean on my part. so that caused her to get upset with me, so we had a little spat about borrowing each other's clothes. i accused her of "having no argument" when she tried to assert that it was bad that i always take her clothes and don't give them back as i demonstrated that she had my pink cardigan in her closet that had disappeared from my closet some weeks ago. i hung up the thing she wanted back and went to my room. then she had the nerve to just open my door and give me the cardigan. not like it really bothered me that it was in her closet. that's when i shut the door forcibly and called her a "(colorful word) square."

and i'm not really a crybaby; the other night it was late and i was frustrated about not being able to sleep and was thinking about the difference between unhappy and not happy.

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the elementary school gods must be smiling on me this morning; i'm subbing for one of the teachers and i HARDLY HAVE TO DO ANYTHING! we were just in the computer lab and right now the kids are in the library for an hour, and then they will be at gym for another hour. which means i have these two hours to boludear and read the paper.