according to my shrink, i am attracted to players.
i explained this by saying, yes, they flirt and are confident and make me feel comfortable. guys who are too shy make me uncomfortable because they are nervous.
on further reflection, i've come up with another twisted reason why i prefer players (and i'm not saying this is good); maybe i feel they can't reject me. let me explain. i trust that an honest, non-player will be up-front with me if he doesn't like me and properly (but politely) reject me. however, i'm sure that players pick up on the fact that i am relatively attractive (compared to other midwestern cows - yes i am a bitch too) and of prime child-bearing age and capability. so he's going to try to get me to notice him because, getting down to the base neanderthal level, he sees me as a possible path towards immortality (to put it nicely.) wether this is a real possibility is up to me. so who is going to reject the possibility of a chance at immortality? also note, i believe that less is more so i'm not one of those girls you will see with her belly hanging out and her ass hanging below the hem of her skirt - i'm not a tramp nor do i try to project this image.
anyway, maybe that's why i'm stuck in this player-cushioned rut of mine.
29.8.05
ooh and one thing i forgot
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maybe you're attracted to players because they give you increased self worth. They are guys that can "get anyone" and by them picking you, it is increased validation of your feminine charms, your hotness, your education etc. They could reject you, but they wouldn't even waste their time talking to you and just play someone else. So when does pay you mind, it's a compliment. And you also get to play games with them and be a challenge,as opposed to normal dopey midwest boys (bulls?)
Girls are drawn to confidence, not games. The concept of being attracted to 'players' gives you a rational and unpainful way to explain why a relationship didn't work, but it doesn't address your own self steem issues.
Our partners mirror who we are, our innermost strenghths, fears, weaknesses, needs, etc. When we open up to someone, the risks of getting hurt multiply exponencially, but are not as great as not giving it a chance, not as great as not sharing w/someone else who we truly are and how we feel.
yes but if they can "get anyone," who does that make me? just another anyone.
i think you're both right. anyone know a good addiction specialist that can help me kick the player habit?
I've heard of one specialist who lives in Charlotte... rumor has it that there's no one like him...
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