why i'm staying in/why i'm locking my door

i think when two giddy people get together, they're like two coals and when you put them together they get even hotter - in this case giddier. i also think it's the same with two people who aren't in a very good mood. except they're two things that are cold that get even colder when you put them together... hmm... mr. p wanted to hang out; i told him i didn't feel like going out because i was in a bad mood. mr. p is also known for acting like a girl - he gets upset really easily. anyway it's a waste of time and money for me to go out in a bad mood; i cancel the day and hope tomorrow will be better.

not that today was bad or anything. just one of those days. yes the snow is pretty but you wouldn't believe how freaking cold it is outside. what happened to summer???

i've decided that winter is just a temporary state that happens sometimes; the normal state of the earth is summer and winter is just for introspection and renewal. I DON'T GIVE A SHIT THAT SCIENCE SAYS OTHERWISE! of course i'm not sure that science really matters on this one.

and a few ground rules re: numbers. a) they don't count if they are unable to maintain the desired state; b) if you haven't done anything with them they can't torment you. i have many more friends in buenos aires, so i won't be alone should i choose not to be so.

my cousin jeff, who has a two year old son, is married, with a pregnant wife on bedrest, is up this weekend. see he was supposed to come up for thanksgiving, but his story as to why he didn't make it was convoluted and we're guessing it probably involves the drunk tank. anyway he is out with my brother tonight. he made it to thanksgiving about 27 hours late.

another reason to stay in; remember what happened last time we went out with my cousin? my brother had volunteered to be the designated driver so i got quite intoxicated because i went to the bathroom at the bar we were at, and when i returned there was an apple martini waiting for me. i had to drink it. so anyway on the way home my brother drops my cousin off at this biker bar (my cousin at this point is drunk and semi-incoherent and/or semi-coherent) so i wander up to my room, wash my face, and fall drunk asleep in bed. some time after, i wake up with a headache and still drunk when my cousin drops into MY BED. i try to push him off (he is trying to take over my pillow) but i am too drunk and my head hurts too bad and he is too heavy so i pass out again. towards 7:00 the headache gets too strong and jeff's face gets too close to mine and i can't push him away so i just give up and sleep the rest of the morning on the couch downstairs. SO that is another reason why i have chosen not to go out tonight: so i can be sober enough to lock my door!