odd/comforting/disconcerting

i can feel something sitting on my shoulder like in the cartoons a good angel and a devil and it's the devil that has the most weight but not that i am tempted to do anything bad it's just all confined to one side digging into my temple knotting up the muscles and tendons in my shoulder and it all makes me wonder if winter would be better spent elsewhere or with someone maybe

can the reader name which two people said the following?

1) when in doubt, don't.

2) (i'm kind of paraphrasing) the best way to get rid of temptation is to yield to it.

it's odd and comforting yet a bit disconcerting to know that the teacher who has been at my school for three years is in the same boat as i am. meaning she's still green and hasn't got a plan down. like me, except she is asking me what i'm doing and how, and sometimes i lend her copies of stuff i make. so it's like i'm the one who has been there longer?

i thought about something today but i have forgotten... oh wait there it is, transition from "girlhood" to "womanhood" i was reminded of today because i had to stop by the nurse's office for some special supplies and when i asked if she had anything on the thinnish side she said she didn't and then i was reminded of that first traumatizing experience i cried practically all afternoon at track practice the only way to console myself was to run faster but then it was like a tail wagging behind me as i ran which traumatized me even more so i had the distinct thought today as i was reminded of that experience that schools should not force girls to make the transition to "womanhood" by making them wear diapers again.

by the way did you know that if i google myself i am reminded where i live and that i was on the dean's list.

and my best time for a 5k was just nearly sub-19. not so great considering that for a 3.2k my best time was 12:15. but i didn't find that information on google, that was back when everyone had dial-up so it took hours in stead of minutes to post the results online. wait, did they even do that back then?

the devil migraine on my shoulder has hijacked my thoughts again for which i apologise so the next logical step is to put my clothes away and put on my pjs and go downstairs and have some white tea and maybe some cereal (i need all the calories i can possibly consume) and get snuggled up in the thick, thick blanket in the living that is provided my stomach is not also hijacked by the devil on my shoulder