this is a double edged sword:

it is nice to be in a library doing nothing except for blogging and catching up on the void of information that have been these last few days;

it sucks to be doing nothing. i am three steps away from showing up at a temp agency and begging for data entry work. just to pass the time. besides i would have an excuse for listening to my audio books! (a much less expensive excuse than is driving around for hours)

and again, because of my lack of responsibility (though i knew quite full well this would happen) i am mentally spiralling downward in dizziness. i did manage to "titrate down" as my line that i "would probably be home by the 4th of july" was 97% bullshit, so i knew this was coming.

fortunately
1. it is summer
2. a psychiatrist close to my place of residence takes my insurance
3. it makes me happy that i'm going to be an aunt.

that should keep me afloat for a little while.