a title better than girlfriend

a sign that you shouldn't be dating a guy anyway: you feel better than his girlfriend.

a friend of mine is dating a girl who is considerably younger than he is - about six years younger. which is fine if he is thirty and she's 24. except he's my age (24) and she isn't even legal!

i was giving him a hard time about it - in a friendly way. i was just asking a bunch of questions under the pretense that "well i have no love life so i have to live vicariously through my friends!"

then the other day i was thinking. i feel like i'm in a better position than his girlfriend. of course, i don't even know her nor do i expect to ever meet her, but i've got a good six years' growing up experience (or more - she's chilean - chilean women seem very sheltered to me) on her. just thinking back on how i was at her age - i didn't know anything about the world! or about myself! it has taken me a long time to feel comfortable in my own skin (pardon the cliche) and learn confidence. but anyway - it's like, we're friends so wether he stays with his girlfriend or not, we'll still be friends. a year ago he was also one on the border of becoming an obsession for me. however, having already been through a similar situation and not wanting a repeat of 2001, i just went with the flow and stopped worrying about it. so here i am. i can ask him and tell him whatever i want without having to worry about how what i say will make me look (another obsession of mine for which i fell almost every time dating new people in argentina.) we're just friends so what i ask/say does not affect my "chances" in any way. it's a great freedom.

whereas she has to make sure she doesn't come across as rude or uneducated or loose or whatever. i can say what i want.

or maybe it's just the drugs. i couldn't really say because i'm not really dating anyone at the moment - there's a boy who calls me on average every two weeks, asks if i'd like to do something but is so completely unable to commit to a specific time, day, and place, that we never see each other. i could care less what he thinks of me, and i don't know if it's because of the situation or if it's because i no longer care about "making a good impression."